I’ve seen your widest smile. I’ve seen your saddest face. I’ve seen your exciting eyes. And with that, I’ve fallen for you.
Every time you turn your face to me excitedly, my heart skips a beat.
Every time you tell me a funny story, my heart skips a beat.
Every time you show up in front of my house’s door with your excited smile, my heart skips a beat.
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I wrote those lines on Feb 8, 2016. I know exactly the muse. I remember the feeling. The excitement when I tried to put it in word by word. I just never thought that you will show up and let me admire you for more years. How ridiculous it is right now, seeing you with another pair of eyes–different from we used to, looking at me with such gentleness. Your eyes suddenly tell me more about how you feel right now. I still can’t believe myself that it’s the same guy I knew so many years ago. How could I dream of being admired, being chased, being loved adorably by you–and only you? It makes my heart skips a beat. Always. Skip a beat.
I don’t have words to say.. but, thank you for waiting all these years. Thank you for picking me up. Thank you for choosing me, though it took you years. Thank you for believing that we may be okay together. Thank you for taking the decision and the first move. And thank you for the intention to take this seriously, step by step.
The journey is still far ahead of us. We still have many responsibilities on our shoulders. If it’s with you, I don’t want to rush things. Let’s enjoy every moment we can share.. and let’s trust our guts that this is gonna work out.
Kita usahakan sama-sama, sisanya biar Tuhan upayakan, ya? 🧡
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It’s a familiar face. Almost two decades, and after all these years, I’m back to you, again. I don’t want to assume things before it happens. So.. we’ll start from here.
Kita peluk niat baik ini.
Kita jalani baik-baik.
Kita rawat dengan usaha dan doa.
Lalu, berharap Tuhan berikan jalan sampai kita di tujuan selanjutnya–tahap berikutnya.
Ya?
Aku selalu percaya, apapun yang diniatkan dengan baik, yang dipikirkan baik-baik, dengan energi yang baik.. Tuhan akan lancarkan. Tuhan akan berikan jalan. Jadi, mari kita berkhusnudzon dengan skenario Tuhan yang lucu ini. Agar segala semoga kita menemukan jawaban terbaiknya, satu persatu. InsyaAllah ya. :’)
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The heart still skips a beat, every time I see you.
And I’m positive, it’ll always be. Even years, even decades passes. It’ll always skip a beat for you. 🧡
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